it has been another long journey that I'm on. mind was never relaxed, many things happened within this and last week and exam has begun from this week.
I don't know how I am lately. I feel so much lost, maybe I'm not but I do feel, I'm pretty at the back. All these are really turning me against the world. What are we? who are we? why do we have to do all these non sense? why can't we just takes things easy? individual's life would be so much easier.
I have never put study as my main priority even a job as a student should be study. What is study? why do we have to do it? I would think it as a form of non sense that we created to balance the failure and success.
I can't say I'm trying hard, I can't say I'm not trying hard. there is just no right way to say it. I did what I want, what I could and what i need. I was over confident, enjoying too much. I know now everything is turning against me, trying to drag me down, trying to break me down.
I am sorry, sorry for everything. Sorry for all the helps, trust and believe. I am disappointed too. Disappointed at myself for not making it, disappointed at everything that I have been looking for. It's just so hard for me to say..
I'm not good at studying, even i used to think that I was. I promise, even I'm a failure of academic, I will be good at living the world, 'cause that's what I have got and what I was born with..
